What's In a Name?

I realized today that I have a new name. I will be called this for the rest of my life. I've been hearing this name a lot over the past few months but it didn't really truly register with me until today. I was walking down the stairs with Lilly and she pointed to my bridal portrait on the wall and said it. 

Momma 

Yes baby girl. That is your momma! And boy has she changed since that picture was taken 4 years ago. But not in a bad way... She's changed in a way that all the other mommas out there can relate to. 

These are some reasons that I know I'm a MOMMA: 

All of my cute and sexy Victoria's Secret bras have been replaced with nursing bras for the time being. 

My outfit has to be "breastfeeding friendly" if we are going out and about. This gives the term "easy access" a whole new meaning. 

I secretly want to buy a minivan and fill it up with kids. 

I have the family stickers on the back of my car. And Mike had to talk me out of buying a "baby on board" sticker. But I'm so getting one when I get that minivan. 

Any purse I buy has to be big enough to carry diapers, wipes, butt cream, toys, books, snacks, extra onsies, shoes, sippy cups, a hat, sunscreen, and my wallet. That is one big purse. Sometimes I'm scared to reach all the way to the bottom. 

Ponytails. 

And when I do take the time to straighten and fix my hair, I feel extra cute! At least for the 15 min. before it's back up in a ponytail. 

I always have diaper cream stuck under my fingernails. 

I rock back and forth... Even when I'm not holding Lilly. 

You will hear a kids sing a-long cd blasting when you start my car. We love rocking out to our ABC's! 

I can do anything in the world using only one hand. This includes, but is not limited to, making the bed, washing bottles, dusting, feeding the dog, eating cereal, putting on makeup, sweeping the floor....

I am 100% totally aware of my surroundings at all times. 

If you see me wearing a hat it means I didn't have time to wash my hair. I might be wearing a lot of hats this summer. 

If I want to have an adult beverage I have to make sure the nursing queen isn't going to want a snack within the hour. Chances are, she probably will.. So I usually just take sips of Mikes. I'm sure he loves this. 

I've had to google things like "why is my baby's poop this color."

I pick her nose without thinking twice about it. 

I've had to say things like "Lilly, don't put your hands in the potty!!!" 

I've used baby wipes to wipe down my dashboard, kitchen counter, sinks, etc....

My belly button will never look the same.

I've painted my fingernails and plucked my eyebrows (or unibrow by the time I get to it) in my car while Lilly has napped in her carseat in the back. 

My friends know that if they text me after 8:00 I will not respond until the morning because I'm asleep. And they forgive me for texting them at 7 am when I just assume the whole worlds awake with us.

I love shopping for Lilly more than I love shopping for myself. 

I haven't kept up with the Kardashian's in over a year. 

And lastly, I know I'm a momma because my heart has grown three times its size. 

I am definitely not the same girl that's in that bridal portriat. I have changed and evolved into somebody else. Somebody that I am very proud to be. Lilly's Momma.