Our daily routine looks a little like this: Wake up at 5:30, nurse Madelyn, get myself ready, go downstairs and pack my lunch, bottles, and school bag, wake Lilly up and get her ready while Mike dresses Madelyn, nurse her one more time, get both girls in the car and off to daycare by 7:30, go to work, pump at 9:00, 11:45 while I scarf my food down, and 2:45 after the kids leave, plan and prepare for the next day, pick the girls up by 4:30, head home, wash bottles and pump parts, label and make bottles for the next day, give Lilly a snack, nurse some more, take baths and showers, eat supper, get ready for bed, nurse one last time and then crash. On Tuesday Lilly has ballet and then choir and mission friends at church on Wednesday. We also need to find a house so my parents don't think we are trying to hang out upstairs forever. I. LIVE. FOR. THE. WEEKEND.
Needless to say, I feel like my head is barely above water. I know it will get easier. The beginning of school is always super busy. Things are starting to slow down a bit and I'm not having to stay as late. I get so much anxiety trying to rush and finish things up at work so I can go get them.
Another pity party I've been having is about my appearance. I'm still about 20 lbs away from my pre-pregnancy weight. It is not coming off as easily as it did with Lilly, but I also didn't gain as much with Lilly. I'm wearing all of my moms clothes that she had stored in the attic because my pants won't come over these American thighs. I miss my beautiful pregnancy skin, hair, and fingernails. Working out is a joke since I don't have the time or energy. I know that I'm only 3 months out but dangggggggg I'm struggling with this at the moment.
So when Mike asked me what I wanted to do for my 30th birthday I told him I just wanted to get away and have a nice weekend with our girls. We stayed at his parents beach place for the weekend. The weather was beautiful and didn't rain at all. We spent time on the beach Friday and Lilly had a blast. There is something about watching your child have a carefree fun time that just soothes your soul. I felt like I could breathe. No bottles to wash or papers to grade. We woke up Saturday and went out for breakfast. Then we went to the park and fed the ducks before doing some shopping. Everybody got some new clothes and Lilly even got a princess sleeping bag. We took naps. I repeat. We ALL took naps. We walked down the road and ate a ton of crab legs and shrimp. We got ice cream. And we ended our night with a nice walk on the beach, which turned into playing in the tide pool, which ended in Lilly stripping down into her underwear.
It was just what I needed. It was perfect. I have been so incredibly blessed with two healthy and happy little girls and a husband that loves to take care of us.
And just like that, I feel 20 lbs lighter.
