Excited: I'm excited for all of the new ways Lilly and I can bond. She's finally letting me put her hair in pigtails. I can't wait to braid her long hair and play beauty salon, and all of the other fun girlie stuff we can do!
Scared: I'm so scared my "almost" 2 year old busy body will not cuddle with me as much as we did while nursing. It's how we started our mornings and ended our days. I'll still demand she gives me 15 minutes of cuddle time or I'm going to throw a huge tantrum...
Sad: I'm definitely feeling this emotion big time. When I nursed her Friday morning I remember telling myself that would probably be the last time I nurse her. She wasn't nursing much anymore and she was going to be with my parents on Saturday so I had already decided to take advantage of that situation and start weaning her. I was going to let her nurse if she threw a huge fit about it but she hasn't done that so I know we are officially done. She has still asked a few times but quickly forgets. I told her they were broken. That part is breaking my heart, but I'm hoping she will stop asking in a few more days.
Hopeful: I am hopeful that I will figure out how to soothe and comfort Lilly in other ways now. I'm sure I will figure it out, but nursing was always our go to when she needed a little extra loving and cuddles.
Proud: Gosh I am so proud. Proud of myself. Proud of my husband. Proud of my Lilly Bug. I never in a billion years thought I would nurse her past a year. But she showed no interest in stopping and I enjoyed our time so much, not to mention all of the healthy benefits she still received from nursing. She made nursing easy right from the beginning and I am very lucky we never had many struggles. It might not have been easy at times, but it has been worth it.
Surprised: I can't believe how big Lilly looks to me now that I have my nursing goggles off. Um, she's a toddler!!!! How did this happen!?!? She says sentences. SENTENCES. Like "I want some milk" or "lay down mommy" or "I want a pickle please". But in all seriousness, my little baby is a baby no more. She is a free spirited, blue eyed, blonde haired, stubborn, hilarious, sweet, and energetic 23 month old little girl who will be 2 exactly one month from today. She has made our lives so full of joy and laughter and I love her more than words can say... and she will always be my little peanut.
*to those mommies who reached out to me over the past two years with nursing questions, I am beyond flattered and proud of you too. I hope your nursing journey, wether long or short, was just as special to you as ours was to me.
