Exhale
Repeat...
Sometimes I just have to sit and remind myself to breathe. Life is busy. And when life is busy sometimes I lose focus on the important things.
Current situation: Madelyn has a double ear infection. She just wants to nurse and be held. I've missed work this week. I missed an important meeting. I have used almost all of my sick days. We still haven't found a house of our own. 90% of my belongings are in storage. Madelyn doesn't have a nursery. Lilly talks about having her own purple room all the time. I share a super tiny closet with a three year old that has more shoes and dresses than I do. I have piles of laundry that need to be folded and put away (this will never end). The struggle is real.
But the good always outweighs the bad. Madelyn is healthy and growing and babbling and rolling over and smiling and laughing and I just love her so stinking much. She is almost ready for her first taste of real food. She's moved on up to size 2 diapers and she totally loves pulling my hair and grabbing my glasses. Lilly is the best big sister in the whole wide world and has been so helpful. Their special bond warms my heart. She is learning so much at school. She has a thanksgiving program this afternoon. She is so excited about Christmas.
The other night Lilly threw a fit about wanting some milk before bed. After telling her over and over that we don't drink milk before bed (mostly because neither one of us wants to go back downstairs) she looks at me and says "Well Maddie Lou gets to drink milk before bed"... Well played kid, well played.
Yes, we still live with my parents. We haven't found a house for us...yet... But we will. Pros- I didn't have to decorate for Christmas and there are two extra hands besides Mike's to help with the kids. This will seem like a distant memory one day... "Hey remember that time we lived with my parents for over a year AND had a baby!?"....
This picture helps too.
So even though life is kind of.. weird... right now, there are so many awesome things yet to come. The struggle is still very real, but I'm going to try very hard to focus on all the positives and blessings in my life.
