Life is a Roller Coaster

So... Life has been a roller coaster lately. I hate roller coasters. My brothers and daddy made me go on my first roller coaster when I was 18. Yes, made me.. (At least that's how I remember it). It was horrible. I think I cried on the way up and then screamed bloody murder the whole way down. And just as I thought it was over.. BAM there was another huge drop. 

I have felt like a ticking time bomb all week. I think I'm just expecting my water to break this time like it did with Lilly. I have no idea what "textbook labor" is like. I don't even know how or when to time contractions or what small contractions feel like. At my 35 week appointment I learned that I had dilated some, which was no big deal, but that I was 70% effaced, which scared the mess out of me. The midwife told me they could check me again the following week to see if anything had changed since we were planning on going to Greenville to pack and move out our furniture. I had pretty much decided that I shouldn't go anywhere after that, but that meant Mike would be 2 hours away for three days. This had me worried sick but we didn't have a choice since our closing date is next Wednesdsay. 

My head cold/allergies/sinus infection/ came back with a vengeance on Monday. I have coughed, sneezed, and blown my nose so much. And coughing/sneezing is dangerous when you are 8 months pregnant with a baby's head sitting on your bladder. My voice is hanging on by a thread. We had testing this week at school. By Thursday I was feeling exhausted and extra crampy/pressure. I just knew that I had dilated some more or something. Mike (my knight in shining armor) met me at the doctors office. We were both extremely nervous to see what they would say since he would be leaving town, and not to mention that I don't really want to have a baby at 36 weeks. I would rather her cook another week at least. AND I definitely couldn't have a baby feeling as sick as I did. 

First things first, she immediately wrote me a prescription for an antibiotic. Maddie Lou's heartbeat was good and she is measuring good. The best news of all is that I haven't changed a bit since last week. What a huge relief. I could see the anxiety float away from Mike's face. We just kept saying we need to get through this weekend. 

So roller coaster ride is over, right!? Wrong. Lilly woke up at 1 am with a fever. By this morning it had reached 102.3 with meds. So off to the doctors office. The first thing they test her for is the flu. The freaking flu. In May. I had sweat dripping down my face waiting for the results. The flu is the last thing I wanted her to have. I was planning on spending this weekend doing fun things with my Lilly Bug. It almost feels like this is our last little bit together before she becomes a big sister. I've been having some major hormonal issues thinking about this. I am extremely excited to meet this new baby but a part of me feels a little sad. Lilly is my best bud and it's hard to imagine how things are going to be with a new baby. I'm assuming these emotions are normal.. and I know we will fall into a new routine. But I just want to get in as many snuggles and kisses as I can. 

So I was so relieved to learn that it wasn't the flu! The doctor thinks it's more viral, but her ear was a little red. She wrote me a prescription just in case she needed something over the long weekend. And I am definitely getting lots of snuggles and cuddles since she is very clingy when she doesn't feel good. 

So our weekend plan is to take it easy, start to feel better, get Mike back home and NOT have a baby. Hopefully this roller coaster has come to a stop for now. I am so ready to hop off of this one. I think I'll stick with the kiddie rides. :)